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Pinned to the lab wall: Brave. Coward. Filed in triplicate, for the audit gods. Strength: volatile. Fragility: equal and opposite. Good-evil ratio: refuses to collapse to one value. Test subjects complain. Or they thank me. Or they think of their aunt’s dog. Result shredded per protocol. Some grow anxious. Some fall asleep. Both reactions logged as adverse events. Finding: You are statistically unclassifiable. Consensus is dead on arrival. Peer review tossed it in the bin. Directive: Proceed per self-authored manual. No ISO exists for specimen ‘You’. F.S.F.

Identity: Inconclusive

I Edmund locks the Inala place, pockets a ring of other people’s mornings. Family on the lawn: thongs, a scuffed Steeden, glare you can taste. The vinyl NO TRESPASSING goes on; a bubble traps air over the O. He reads the catechism the lender likes, eyes on the curb. The girl’s question doesn’t belong to any clause. He turns the key hard. Click. II “Not to occupy… penalties… clink.” Statute heat on tin. The father holds a kettle cord and one spoon. “Where will we stay?”-five years old, same number as the threat. No answer; the biro stays shut. He steps past the ball, the dead mower stripe. Keys knock his thigh toward the ute. The biro cap tests itself once in his pocket. Click. III Glovebox: felt pouch, oil, the small machine. One round where it has lived for seventeen mornings. Thumb, wrist, the practised cock; the cylinder whirrs dry air. Metal on tongue-coins and summer rail. Lorikeets heckle the verge; the ute breathes. Verdict not in paperwork. Click. IV Again. Nothing. Again. Nothing-the kind of mercy that doesn’t clap. He sets it down on vinyl, wipes his face with the same hand. He does not try a fourth time. That is the break. Indicator ticks; a neighbour drags a bin to the kerb. He cancels the blinker and watches the silence slot in. The stalk settles against its stop. Click. V Beaudesert Road to Ipswich Road to Vulture Street, over the river. No speeches; the wheel does the thinking. West End: a flying-fox mural, heat in the shade. Inside, cheap cork and crooked staples wait. VOLUNTEER ROSTER-columns, dates, empty boxes like small rooms. He uncaps the marker. The felt wakes and the cap lands. Click. VI E D M U N D-letters that haven’t done this job before. The bowl of the D darkens, a chamber he can’t fire. Someone hands him tea; steam climbs, steady as breath. Cup to saucer; a ring prints itself, brown and exact. Outside, the bubble over the O softens under sun. Inside, names collect-small circles keeping the lights on. Click. F.S.F

Rule Breaker

Spin [F.S.F.] 5:20 splits dark. Up.[Masochist.] Pain first, light later.[Both.] Shoes, door, cold tiles, knees. [F.S.F.] Carpark moon. The tribe gathers.[Masochist.] Raggle-taggle, watt counters.[Both.] Clip, fail, twist, swear, knees. [Instructor.] Up. Down. Faster. Harder.[F.S.F.] Hill. Flat. Breathe. Obey.[Both.] Legs burn. Wind leaves, knees. [Masochist.] Add load. Buy altitude.[F.S.F.] Hubris knocks: thunder costume.[Both.] Saddle sneers. Time blurs, knees. [F.S.F.] Leaderboard glares. I bluff.[Masochist.] Don’t chase names, chase edge.[Both.] Sweat pools small seas, knees. [F.S.F.] Minutes turn to rock.[Masochist.] Forty-five or forty-five years?[Both.] Lactic writes receipts, knees. [F.S.F.] Second wind; suspect, welcome.[Masochist.] Stay. Breathe like rope.[Both.] Cadence holds the freeze, knees. [Instructor.] Last track. Empty the tank.[F.S.F.] White noise. Leg strobe.[Both.] Stop lands like breeze, knees. [F.S.F.] Unclip. Wobble. Laugh.[Masochist.] High-five the wreckage.[Both.] Coffee buys reprieve, knees. F.SF

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Because the system names obedience professionalism. &nbsp;Because alarms build consent. &nbsp; Because the office buys your future, sells you certainty by the hour. &nbsp; &nbsp;Because the job takes Monday and your Sunday night. &nbsp; &nbsp; Because the commute is a tax with no receipt. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;Because gratitude is theatre: smile, nod, “lucky to be here,” while someone clips&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; the coupon on your time. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;Because we confuse need with freedom. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; Because debt masks as opportunity; interest compounds on hours. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;Because productivity is motion in costume; meetings are where dreams die. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; Because the dividend is time; you hand it in at reception. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;Because rent is due, children need shoes, visas have clocks. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; Because molars tally; diaphragm counts laps; jaw locks, breath counts, ten&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; thousand surrenders. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;Because craft returns you to yourself; grind leases you back in fragments. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; Because some shifts restart hearts; others run the rinse: card swipes turn&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; the drum, policy foam, panels spin; the ledger dries whiter. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;Because the machine will not love you for feeding it. As the only applause you trust is your own in an empty room. F.S.F.

Be Grateful You Bitch

The river hurries. The stone stays. Neither persuades the other.The moth circles the lantern. The owl watches. Feathers do not intervene.Smoke lifts from singed wings. Water rushes around the stone. Flame promises, then collects.People walk past. Some notice. Someone drops a taco wrapper.The lantern burns; then stops. The stone waits longer. The moth does not wait.F.S.F

River, Stone, Lantern, Moth

Leaf says: eatCaterpillar says: eatWind says: moveCrow asks: purpose?I say: eatShadow says: runBranch says: curlRain says: marchAnts say: trail is learnedTrail says: ants leadThorn says: map painWeb says: joinBreeze says: cut freeCocoon says: questionEdges cut shape; shape holds wind; wind carries changeCocoon says: answerBreeze says: hold fastWeb says: unspinThorn says: map balmTrail says: lead antsAnts say: trail learnsRain says: hushBranch says: unfurlShadow says: restI say: waitCrow answers: silenceWind says: stayCaterpillar says: sipLeaf says: give F.S.F.

F.S.F

Writing, Poems and Rants

Identity: Inconclusive

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Be Grateful You Bitch

River, Stone, Lantern, Moth

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